I have that i have nothing to wear feeling going on. Very excited to be going out tonight to celebrate mine and debbie's birthday. I am trying not to have any expectations. thats how a birthday gets ruined, if you expect something to go a certain way. I cant wait to have an awesome night out. then i have to get up early for a work meeting. not awesome. but its a part of my job, so i gotta just suck that part up. wont last too long its just the fact of not being able to sleep in. But i took sunday off so i finally get to have a day to sleep in. Its like a dream come true. i cant remember the last time i slept in. also tomorrow before the singing festivities i get to get mother fucking tattooed again!! My hottietottietattooist Dan, is going to do some more work on my back piece! I cant wait!
 on another note. i was reading about how doctors use to order orgasms to treat hysteria. i think they were right. You's go see you're doctor all crazy like, and walk out with a smile. Maybe body modification is similar to that you get the sam adrenaline rush, and depending on the kind of freak you are some get off on the way tattooing feels. Perhaps having someone hold you down and give you pleasure or going in and agreeing to altering your body forever go hand in hand? Maybe everyone in the world does what they do to calm down in this world just to get off. everyone is always just trying to get rid of the hysteria. tattoo gun, vibrator, candy, alcohol and drugs, sex with strangers, yoga, running, we're all just trying to release the endorphins and walk away with a smile. A little pain is good for you.